15 beautiful, sunny, strong, feel good miles. I was in a bit of a funk this week. I feel like my vision is so clear and I am confident and open about my goals. I don’t care how lofty or scary they sound, my A goal is a sub3 and my B goal is a 3:05. I know I am capable and I can confidently say that I have a stronger work ethic than anyone I know. I wake up and want to train and I leave work and want to train. Unfortunately, my body hasn’t always enjoyed that mindset so it has its drawbacks but I’m proud of it. That being said, lately I feel myself getting pulled into the Instagram comparison trap. I’ll finish a long run or workout and feel so proud and then I jump on here and I feel less proud of what I did...not okay! I pride myself in having a unique training style and have always believed that on race day, I can still compete with everyone else and put up a solid time. I was telling my bf about this and he said “well then just take time away from Instagram”. Sure it sounds logical but just like an injury, you shouldn’t treat the symptoms, you should treat the problem. So what’s the problem? From my first marathon in 2015 to my current PR and 4th marathon (Chicago 2016), I consistently PRd. I ran 3 days a week, did crossfit, followed my own plan and would basically knock minutes off my PR every time I raced. Since then, injuries happened and I jumped in back to back races so things haven’t been as smooth and linear. I am well aware that marathon times are not linear and it can take years to get another PR but with more races under my belt and as more time passes from my last PR, my confidence in the distance fades a bit. In general, I’m a confident person so I can kick those feelings fast but it’s been a work in progress lately SO...what I’ve been doing to help combat these feelings is to ask myself..”are you stronger than last week?” and if the answer is yes, then it’s done. I’m exactly where I need to be at this time and my only focus should be on preparing for another week of building so that “yes” can be the answer next week. And each yes is a small stepping stone to big things.